Sky High

This week has been crazy! Sky diving was super awesome however it isn’t as scary as you think it would be but it is so worth it! I also walked 20 miles on friday to go to a waterfall which was really cool. I went bouldering around the base of the water fall which was fun but the water was freezing since its just now becoming spring here. I also got really bad blisters on the heels of my feet since i had to walk home from the water fall in wet shoes but i had really good conversations walking there and back so God knew what He was doing.

So let me tell you about God now! This week was life changing for me. We talked about the Lordship Of Christ with Mark Parker and God moved so much in all of us! The first thing i learned is that God is in control and this life is not about me doing great things for him its about him doing whatever He wants when He wants to do it. I still need to learn how to deny my self everyday but it is so amazing to wake up focusing on God rather then wondering about what i need to do today! 

This week was also hard because the Lord told me before i came here to New Zealand that i was going to go to India but when they called the teams for outreach I was called to Fiji. I was so upset because i was confused about what God had said. However i was able to get my frustration out without hurting anyone or making a scene and i went away to talk to the Lord directly. He calmed me down and i just felt him say that He never said when i was to go to India. So obviously that is not right now.

So continuing on with what God is speaking to me there is still so much! People have been blessing me with so much chocolate and showing me random acts of kindness and for some reason i keep feeling like i don’t deserve it. i know that God needs to humble me in order to receive not only gifts but his love. 

Yesterday was the biggest day of my life. We had the stages of going into the Temple which in the end is being consumed with Gods fire and presence. God used people to tell me that I am Loud and Radical for him and when i speak people will listen and i just have a way of being myself and changing atmospheres. God also gave Dave a vision of me sitting with 4 orphans on a rocking chair talking to them and they were so focused on what i was telling them. Then Chan got the place of India in his head and it just made me feel so much better that i did hear God when he said India but He has a different time for me. I also received that gift of tongues which is really weird but i’m growing in it and its pretty awesome !

Now i have some big news, I think the Lord is calling me to staff the next DTS which is 2 weeks after my DTS ends so i would not be able to go home to see my family or make money. I think God is telling me to stay because i didn’t really do a good job at asking or receiving money from people the first time. So with being here i have to rely on God for providing money and using others to support me which is something that is really hard for me to do cause i don’t want to feel like a burden but God is changing my heart. I trust that God is my provider and i will have no money at the end of my DTS so i’m excited to see how God works. He is a faithful God and He wouldn’t call me here if he wasn’t going to provide. I thank you for all your prayers and support!!!