Trust

God needs all of me, God needs all of you but what does that mean?

This journey of trying to give God all of me has been extremely hard. There are days were I feel like I am completely in the dark and then there are days where Gods presence is so consuming.

I have to ask myself often do I believe the God I serve is who he says he is? What breaks my heart is that sometimes I don't. Even though God has proven himself to me so many times I still doubt him.

 

It is so easy for me to just grab hold onto everything around me when I should just fall so God can catch me. This last month has changed me completely. I have had to really trust God's timing for India. My student's visa just got confirmed last week so we are waiting in the mail for it. We have been doing outreach here in the community of Darwin and God has given us opportunities to show his love for sure. I have had to really humble myself and realize that God is the one in control.

 

Even for next year God has really shifted things and I'm not certain what God wants me to do. I'm learning to let it go and really trust him. I want to be known for having unshakable faith in him. However I fine it so easy to doubt his character. I want to be in place that I never question his promises. So at this time there is a possibility of coming home at the end of February. However it would be extremely bittersweet to leave Darwin. I honestly just want to do what God wants me to do. I am continuing to learn how to give him all of me.