India

I will praise The Lord, who counsels me even at night my heart instructs me. I have set The Lord always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I shall not be shaken.  Psalms 16: 7-8

India is like no other place I have been to before. Although it has a familiar feel to it because of the dirt roads, trash misplaced everywhere and the sound of car horns it is definitely different. I say this because I have never seen so much idol worship out in the open. The atmosphere is so heavy that if you aren't worshipping The Lord you are exhausted. Although there is so much idol worship The Lord is at work. I went to a church last Sunday where 50,000 Christians attended church and its still growing. I am in such awe of how The Lord is working here. Christian church's are rising up everywhere and it's so encouraging!
I'm staying in a village with a pastors family that inspire me. They live by faith and God has blessed them with 3 church's and  yesterday 9 people were baptized! We have been mostly encouraging and praying with the people in the village. We had the opportunity to help at clinic who help people with diseases. So I got to be the nurses assistant, although it was shocking at moments it was eye opening. These people are actually sent out of the villages to live outside the town. In all honesty the Old Testament has never made so much sense. It's like revelation after revelation about what Jesus was talking about.

If you could pray for break through in the spiritual atmosphere and for peace to consume the people.
We are hoping to run a children's program in the village for about 200 kids so pray for finances and Salvation's.
Lastly if you could pray that I let go of my fears about the future.

I hope you have a very Merry Christmas. Thanks for all your prayers and support.

Trust

God needs all of me, God needs all of you but what does that mean?

This journey of trying to give God all of me has been extremely hard. There are days were I feel like I am completely in the dark and then there are days where Gods presence is so consuming.

I have to ask myself often do I believe the God I serve is who he says he is? What breaks my heart is that sometimes I don't. Even though God has proven himself to me so many times I still doubt him.

 

It is so easy for me to just grab hold onto everything around me when I should just fall so God can catch me. This last month has changed me completely. I have had to really trust God's timing for India. My student's visa just got confirmed last week so we are waiting in the mail for it. We have been doing outreach here in the community of Darwin and God has given us opportunities to show his love for sure. I have had to really humble myself and realize that God is the one in control.

 

Even for next year God has really shifted things and I'm not certain what God wants me to do. I'm learning to let it go and really trust him. I want to be known for having unshakable faith in him. However I fine it so easy to doubt his character. I want to be in place that I never question his promises. So at this time there is a possibility of coming home at the end of February. However it would be extremely bittersweet to leave Darwin. I honestly just want to do what God wants me to do. I am continuing to learn how to give him all of me.