Sky High

This week has been crazy! Sky diving was super awesome however it isn’t as scary as you think it would be but it is so worth it! I also walked 20 miles on friday to go to a waterfall which was really cool. I went bouldering around the base of the water fall which was fun but the water was freezing since its just now becoming spring here. I also got really bad blisters on the heels of my feet since i had to walk home from the water fall in wet shoes but i had really good conversations walking there and back so God knew what He was doing.

So let me tell you about God now! This week was life changing for me. We talked about the Lordship Of Christ with Mark Parker and God moved so much in all of us! The first thing i learned is that God is in control and this life is not about me doing great things for him its about him doing whatever He wants when He wants to do it. I still need to learn how to deny my self everyday but it is so amazing to wake up focusing on God rather then wondering about what i need to do today! 

This week was also hard because the Lord told me before i came here to New Zealand that i was going to go to India but when they called the teams for outreach I was called to Fiji. I was so upset because i was confused about what God had said. However i was able to get my frustration out without hurting anyone or making a scene and i went away to talk to the Lord directly. He calmed me down and i just felt him say that He never said when i was to go to India. So obviously that is not right now.

So continuing on with what God is speaking to me there is still so much! People have been blessing me with so much chocolate and showing me random acts of kindness and for some reason i keep feeling like i don’t deserve it. i know that God needs to humble me in order to receive not only gifts but his love. 

Yesterday was the biggest day of my life. We had the stages of going into the Temple which in the end is being consumed with Gods fire and presence. God used people to tell me that I am Loud and Radical for him and when i speak people will listen and i just have a way of being myself and changing atmospheres. God also gave Dave a vision of me sitting with 4 orphans on a rocking chair talking to them and they were so focused on what i was telling them. Then Chan got the place of India in his head and it just made me feel so much better that i did hear God when he said India but He has a different time for me. I also received that gift of tongues which is really weird but i’m growing in it and its pretty awesome !

Now i have some big news, I think the Lord is calling me to staff the next DTS which is 2 weeks after my DTS ends so i would not be able to go home to see my family or make money. I think God is telling me to stay because i didn’t really do a good job at asking or receiving money from people the first time. So with being here i have to rely on God for providing money and using others to support me which is something that is really hard for me to do cause i don’t want to feel like a burden but God is changing my heart. I trust that God is my provider and i will have no money at the end of my DTS so i’m excited to see how God works. He is a faithful God and He wouldn’t call me here if he wasn’t going to provide. I thank you for all your prayers and support!!!

Holy Spirit!

This week we are talking about relationships. Its super cool because we are not only talking about the real relationship we have with Christ but our relationships with people. We have been talking alot about marriage and discovering what we think is important for a godly marriage. I have realized that i am not as crazy as i thought i was! Dating is a worldly thing, not a Jesus follower thing. It is not bad to date but if you are dating for the game of it you got a problem. I still stand firm on the idea that i will not date without the intent of marriage in mind. When dating is a game there are a lot of temptations that are unnecessary. I’m not sure when i will find that some one but i definitely know what to look for. Number one being he must love the Lord more then he loves me.

This weekend we are going skydiving!! I can’t believe that i will be jumping out of a moving plane on saturday! Also its Erika’s birthday, my close friend and room mate here on base so today is going to be a awesome day!! I still can’t believe how much God is working in my life. I have forgiven people i thought i would always be mad at, felt compassion for people who i never thought where hurting and showing love to people who need it most. I am even learning how to share chocolate... i know crazy!! Thank you to everyone who is praying for me ... i need it !

1Cor 10

ANGEL

What to say? I have had the most amazing week ever!!  This week we talked about the Holy Spirit in lectures. The first couple of days were normal, nothing to big was revealed to me but that all changed on thursday! Mau, the speaker prayed for me and what he said blew me away! He first told me that i need to stop feeling responsible for things that are out of my control. He also told me that i need to let God fix the wounds i have from people and not try to temporarily fix them myself. Then the next thing he said was that I have a HUGE ANGEL BEHIND ME and he has been there for a while. He said i have nothing to be afraid of because God is always near. I can’t explain to you in words how it feels to have an angle behind me. But some how i really know that there is. 

On Friday during prayer God told me that he has set me apart from earthly things like drinking,drugs and sex and i never really understood why i never had the desire to even try those things. So it made sense when God said that he had been protecting me from it. God also told me not to worry about my future and not being purposeful enough. I just need to trust that God will use me in his timing, not mine.

Then during my free weekend me, Erika,Kim,Carly,Joel,Fred.David,Ben and Eric went camping to a nearby town. I can’t explain everything but God had his hand on us the hole time. We camped on a strangers farm with his permission of course and stayed in the most beautiful area i have ever been before, all for FREE! Went zorbing which is when you roll down a hill in a hamster ball with people in it with water. It was so amazing and the guy gave us all a discount and threw in a free CD of all the pictures and videos of us rolling down. It was so amazing. Then we went on this track with little plastic cars down a track on a hill and i thought we were going to go slow but they were extremely fast. I almost fell off a coupe of times because the turns were so sharp and i was going so fast. So much cooler then go carting and that is saying alot. There was so much more that happened but that is all i will go into detail about. However this camping place was the perfect place for quiet time with God we also did lots of prayer together and just really uplifted each other up. I feel as if God has given me a new family here and i’m so excited to see what he keeps doing with us. 

God keeps reminding me to let Him be the one in charge and i need to learn how to just receive his love. Its a free gift and there is nothing i can do or say to make it go away or to earn it.