I'm all done with working, and offically exhausted so I will be using these 5 days to recover and get everything else done. I just want to thank Jesus for being so faithful, not only did he give me the ability to work this summer but he blessed me with amazing people who want to support his kingdom. This week alone I have recieved $600 and i'm speechless. Thank you everyone who not only helped finacially support me but for all the prayers!!! I feel so loved and so blessed to have an amazing community around me ! God is so good all the time !
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting. -Psalm 139:23-24
I have become so worn out with working 65 hours a week and its finally over !!!!! I now will only be working 30 this last week. Even though with this crazy life style these last months I have still been able to find the Lord through out the day. I'm so thankful that he is the one who gives me strength and patience to make it through the day. I may be completely exhausted physically but spiritually I'm still on fire and I can only thank God for that. The song today sums up exactly how I feel =]
Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to your neighbor, for we are all members of one body. “In your anger do not sin” Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold. Anyone who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with their own hands, that they may have something to share with those in need.
Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen. And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption. Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you. -Ephesians 4:25-32
As I prepare to leave for New Zealand in a little over 2 weeks, I continue to find out more about my character. When God gave me the desire to go to New Zealand I was so excited and passionate to do his calling. However it seems that when God gives me a desire I decided to take everything into my own hands. Taking full control is not a good thing, I have no idea what made me think that I could do Gods plan all by myself. I realized my problem was following God, without God. My intentions were good but that does not always make it the wise choice. As I sit her exhausted from working a 12 hour day I can't help to wonder if my summer would of played out differently if I had put more trust into God rather then myself. I don't regret this summer, I have learned alot and met alot of wonderful people but for the future its important to keep learning. I have learned more about trusting in the Lord, I still have alot to learn but when the Lord tells me he is going to do something I need to submit to him. I need to make sure that I don't start running after something with out God holding my hand. I can only do great things with him, so I better make sure I stop being my own adviser.
Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4: 4-7
When i sing this song i am singing it to santan, I believe God will always win and if i remain in him there is no way i could be out of site, like a skysraper.
